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Fruition by heiwateki-jitsuzai, literature

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Fruition

Fruition Put down the phone… Me feelings for you Have long since come into fruition. We’ve kissed and held hands We’ve dreamt of each other We’ve courted and made out We’ve been close. And now Our closeness becomes a close An end to the warmth of your touch A finality. An ultimatum. Your softness Touching you Kissing you Holding you Your smell Your lip gloss, staining my own lips as it were Me feelings of indescribable satisfaction and staunched emptiness After being with you. My fruition is you. I refuse to define this ending. I’ve barely admitted it exists until now. I’m not reall

The Prison by heiwateki-jitsuzai, literature

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The Prison

What crime, What sin, Have I committed To endure a punishment such as this? Locked in a room No doors No windows leading to the outside No judge to adjudicate or family member wishing farewell Not here. Not in this metallic prison of lunacy I have no voice No hands No means of expressing myself And my suffering Only my eyes and ears remain My skin can feel My tears can fall My mind can think But my tongue is conspicuously absent My punishment? Not a single hand will be laid upon me I only need to watch the torturing of others Forever And I know that I will suffer much more before the end, Because today is just the b

Burned by heiwateki-jitsuzai, literature

Dead Leaf by heiwateki-jitsuzai, literature

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Dead Leaf

Stained red from a lifetime of green Curling up with lack of life Stem longer than the shape A worm has bitten through the flesh Either in death or in life. Rotten remains trim the outline Remnants of green linger in the veins Like blood, green as life was, still flowing. The seasons have melted away vivacity Skin is leathery and apathetic Indifference comes with decay The nature of cadavers. Emaciated little leaf, Arms curling upon yourself Wishing to be hugged, Death has allowed you no comfort. Stains of brown and black Spread like mold across the body Death has already claimed you Your mother tree still lives While yo

Alone by heiwateki-jitsuzai, literature

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Alone

Why are humans so afraid of being alone? Our instinctual faces reprimand us in solitude and praise us in packs Why is singularity so frightening? I am alone. But I am myself Even when all the friends disappear, and the lovers vanish with the sun's rising, and the family has disowned its offspring, The true essence of self cannot be stolen Why do we fear the word "single?" Why do we torture ourselves with longing? Why do we wish to assimilate into infinity, when 1 has the best idea of who lives within the pointless shell? In packs we lose our identity Alone we lose our minds.

Mercedes by heiwateki-jitsuzai, literature

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Mercedes

Mercedes [A responsorial poem to Pan's Labyrinth (El Laberinto del Fauno)] Mercedes, my dear Stand strong when the world is weak Heal when they hurt, Save when they kill. Fight in the shadows Hide… Your face A whisper on a cold night, spreading warmth next to my ear: "There is hope yet." Mercedes, my flower Hide the knife Keep it with you at all times Spit on the ground he walks upon You are not a coward You are braver than them all Smart Beautiful, but with bones made visible by worry and obligation. Mercedes, my savior Cry not! Fight profusely! You love her and she will not forget nor forsake you Though he may tie

Only What We Seem by heiwateki-jitsuzai, literature

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Only What We Seem

The mirror is the god that dictates our every action and whim A glob of fat there, A blemish here, Ugly nose, Ugly hair Razors are the drugs that ease the pain. As if carving off the hated skin would help remove the cause But not the symptom Watch the blood leak out No description Red as…whatever Pretty as…um, I forgot We are only what we seem to be The picture of ourselves rots in our minds, Decaying to the point of vulgarity Until that is all we can see. Sky of blue? Eyes of mud. Grass of green? Feet of duck. There is no definition of self without the picture of self Sure, I may bring the hammer down upon the mirror

The Feminist Movement by heiwateki-jitsuzai, literature

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The Feminist Movement

Chasing the Steam of the Feminist Movement Suffolk County Community College held their "Open College Night" last October on the twelfth. I, being a year too young to attend the educational event myself, stayed at home doing homework. My brother and my mother went to be informed about the wondrous opportunities provided by financial aide and/or one hell of an education coupled with a lifetime's worth of financial debt (either or, really. But, hey, the Iraqis have democracy!). They returned home laden with enough booklets and college brochures to use as living room wallpaper. However, among this pile of advertisements, they offered me an SCCC

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Community Infection by heiwateki-jitsuzai, literature

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Community Infection

I remember feeling alive. I remember feeling well-fed and fresh, Prepared for all the miseries that the world held in store for me. I remember feeling ready to fight, Sword sharpened and mind molded to fit every curve of the ideal. Hands eager to begin, Feet twitching in preparation for the run, Eyes bright and attentive. I remember feeling alright. I remember what it felt like to define myself without the boundaries of failure reminding me that I cannot move. Before the disease. I cannot move. My bones are too brittle, My spirit too weak, My eyes are dry and weary, The light grows harsh and undesirable. My stomach is

Settling for Vibes by heiwateki-jitsuzai, literature

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Settling for Vibes

Copious beats mingled with a young, angry, familiar voice. The beats and rhythms are xeroxed from one song to the next. The voices? Different variations of the same person. The person? A perfect doppelganger of his true form, every one with just as much emotion as its predecessors and successors. Screaming. Singing. Whispering. Whining. All the same. The true form? It doesn't exist anymore. Yet my heart is comforted by these meaningless melodies. The irritating noise that grates against my eardrums enters my brain with warm welcome. This is her music. This is what her ears are exposed to. This is what her mind analyz

Sonata in Silence by heiwateki-jitsuzai, literature

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Sonata in Silence

Music plays in the background. Some leaves stir, A paper trail rustles indifferently. Notes pour out of an unseen instrument Producing unheard sounds, Sounds labeled nonexistent. Someone has constructed an instrument of unique design. Its strings are perfectly aligned, Well planned and well crafted. The holes are accurately cut, with few or no obvious mistakes. Immediately when a bow is placed to this work of art, If a person could donate a sparse thought to this gilded tool, Surely they would find that it emits only the sweetest music. Deep and affecting. The type of music not easily forgotten by a sensitive ear. This m

Mistake by heiwateki-jitsuzai, literature

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Mistake

A clean, fresh, wooden pencil draws a line across an immaculate sheet of white paper. In one brief moment, the hand that's guiding it swerves off-course suddenly. Now the razor-edged line has a curve marring it. A mistake. I am a mistake. I am the section of that line that veers into the unknown towards nothing. The world all around me is straight: thin, beautiful, interesting, articulate. My world. Encasing its occupants in demands of harsh perfection, except for that one small, inconsequential fragment of a line that chose difference. That one glitch in the ruler-monitored mechanism known as life. It is not my decision to be cu

On the Inside by heiwateki-jitsuzai, literature

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On the Inside

Things are not so pretty on the inside, that is. Our organs pump blood through constricted arteries, veins struggling to maintain enough sustenance for daily life. There is no light on the inside. Everything is dark. Except for the bare light shining through where the skin is not so thick, our organs thrive in the sightless arena of white noise. On the left side, a cold, indelible "thump, thump" Blood surges in and out, weaving here and there, Livers squeal and scrunch alongside the pancreas The stomach waits patiently for its own acid to ultimately destroy itself In a horrible fit of ulcers. (should have taken it easy, s

Never by heiwateki-jitsuzai, literature

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Never

Never is such a strange word. It is like an unwarranted, uncorroborated peek into the future. We are basically suggesting that in the future We will be a certain way. Life will be a certain way. Things will work out the way we plan. It is self-contradictory, really. How can we guess the future when all we contend to know about ourselves for sure is the present? Nothing is clear. The future. It is unforeseeable. The past. It is blurred by the time-span of millions of seconds, meshed into one massive conglomerate of delusion confusing our most precious thoughts into an unrecognizable blemish. I'll never say good-bye… I

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Current Residence: Around there, about
Favourite genre of music: Any type of Rock, Indie preferrably, but I'll listen to anything
Operating System: Microsoft Word *sweatdrop* I know. Boring. I'm sorry!
MP3 player of choice: iPod, although mine is really not very good and I have the 20GB T_T
Wallpaper of choice: My current wallpaper is a photo of the revival cast of Sweeney Todd in one scene
Favourite cartoon character: Seto Kaiba. Yeah. Or Izumi Curtis from FMA
Personal Quote: "It is better to be hated for something you are, than to be loved for something you are not.&am

Favourite Visual Artist

Hmm...I like a lot of different anime styles and artists

Favourite Movies

"Kill Bill Vols. 1 & 2", "The Devil's Advocate", "The Children

Favourite Bands / Musical Artists

System of a Down, Ani DiFranco, Bright Eyes, Rammstein

Favourite Writers

Ai, Sylvia Plath

Favourite Games

FFX, KH2

Tools of the Trade

All I need is my pen, my notebook, and something on my mind. But in a way, we all feel like that ne?

Other Interests

Writing, reading, music, foreign languages, the martial arts, working with small children (serious)

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heiwateki-jitsuzai

Feb 22, 2008

I'm Back, I guess...

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Hey, it's been a while! Nice to be back. I've been busy for like..a long...long time...it saddens me too in case anyone was up to sharing their feelings ;) . How has everyone been? I don't know if I'm going to stick with this site for very long...still keeping on my toes in regards to everything else going on. But I hope I get to talk to ya'll soon. So, I'm not dead! Yay! ...heh... :rose: --heiwateki-jitsuzai ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ ALL MY ICONS GO HERE

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heiwateki-jitsuzai

Aug 8, 2007

Why, Hello

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Well, I haven't been on this site in a while! It's been a while, hasn't it? Can't say that I've done much creative construction in my absence, either. So no new updates unfortunately. I miss that artsy side I used to indulge in more frequently. I need to get back into that... Anyway, things have been going on. Got a girlfriend. I really do like her a lot, but I'm sad because she's going away to college in a few weeks...it's going to be so hard to say good-bye...:cries: Other than that, I've beenr eally busy with summer assignments. It's really getting annoying. The Adventures of Huckleberry Finn, if you hadn't guessed, was actually the caus

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heiwateki-jitsuzai

Apr 2, 2007

I-CON and Condom Balloons

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Yay for vacation this week...ah, I love Spring Break. Yeah, I have SO MUCH freaking work to do over the break, but I'd rather be home doing it than in school struggling to stay awake and keep on tope of all the other shit I have to do on a daily basis. It's been fun lately, actually. Two weeks ago I went to I-CON with ym friend and her dad. I didn't even know it was coming up so I didn't have time to cosplay (:cries:) but that's okay. I still had a hell of a lot of fun. Anyone ever heard of an anime called "Disgaea"? It's pretty freaky, but I got to watch a fwe episodes and after a while it really grows on you. Other than that, I bought this

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